I allow myself to hear the languages Jim and I speak that are most representative of who we are. I allow myself to hear what I most need to tell myself. I allows myself to hear love whenever it is offered to me. I allow myself to hear truth in the midst of confusion. I allow myself to hear the still inner voice that says: draw a boundary. do it right now.
I wish to allow myself to hear the running water in the stream, irrespective of weather, for a week beyond the Equinox. I wish to allow myself to hear a greater absence of critical/cynical inner thoughts. I wish to allow myself to hear the quiet dignity of a considered opinion rather than reactive buzzwords. I wish to allow myself to hear that the universe knows me by my sacred name.
somebody asked: but how do I begin?
just sit down and let it happen. Soften your thinking/verbal-based brain the way a visual artist learns to soften their eye. If words are super hard for you, you can draw something but TRY to learn how words are power-adjacent rather than power-erosive.
The Power of Word is Real. Give yourself this month's time to treat it with dignity.
If you 'write' by blurting out whatever comes -
do less of that.
try mindful communication instead.
If you freeze up whenever it's your turn to speak
or you're accustomed to telling yourself you have nothing of value or meaning to contribute within any given conversation
ask yourself why.
ask yourself what would happen if you felt too safe to freeze.
(hint: seek out your heart center for that answer)
work with it. And yourself.
in the spirit of Blue.
Part of the value of writing out prompts that begin (or for that matter, end) with the same words: after you've done it for a day or two your mind will begin to automatically anticipate and respond to those words more freely and without concentrated effort.
If words are easy for you
make how you relate to your gift
less sure of itself
more open to mystery
of the words inside
that always seem to have trouble
emerging in the right order
so you tend to let them go 'for later'
when there's more time
when you can think more clear
when you somehow feel more, rather than less, ability
to 'know what to say'.
people say to me ALL THE TIME both online and in walking around life (this has been going on for decades)
"I'm not like you. I don't automatically know what to say."
so truth to power:
neither do I
I just refuse to let that stop me
from figuring out what needs to be said
and saying it.
that's my 'secret' -
I just freakin' use my words, rather than not.
is that I don't generally tend to acknowledge
to myself or anyone else
that this ability
is in and of itself
so I'm doing that now.
what is YOUR often-ignored/improperly recognized blue gift ????
[knowing when to hold your tongue doesn't count, in the context of this suggestion - especially if you're female.
we're all very good at that.
but I think most of us 'play along'
rather than authentically
changing the play.
I feel super-strongly about this:
we as women have GOT to get ourselves together enough
to stop lying 'for the greater good' of ostensibly playing nicely together
so I might speak on this again sometime this month
but usually I decide
that's not blue
that's really funky-lookin' yellow-orange.
so we'll see ...]