This is actually a fairly yellow post in terms of how the words are put together as well as what they express. [and then heart - uh - muscled into the middle of everything, too.] The journal pages hold orange-ness and distinctly orange qualities of expression.
***Please note. i spent part of yesterday afternoon bringing back all the collage challenge posts including the numerous prep-posts I published during last December. ***
The centerfold of my first attempt to cut and layer page edges in this kind of way. I was working with a book that offered a full year's self-guided relatively deep dive into art journaling. I won't mention the book title because I know this particular process - specifically it's lack of addressing mental health/emotional backup support context - is legit upsetting to a few of my friends who are art therapists. I also know how I felt myself when somebody approached the exercises here in a way that caused disruption to the mainframe for about a minute and a half's worth of teachable-ness that one hopes will be effective - or at least of some marginal use for two people just starting out on the life path of reaching out from a soulful place laced with vision clarity and then seeing what happens.
subtext: I'm the seasoned one, here. so I guess my first line of business each and every month is to figure out what that means as the days unfold.
[another page in my informal botanical art journal. first I used watercolor ground without reading about it or watching any videoes. I just put a ton on all around the pasted down tulips. A strand of hair got caught in it and I just cut off the part beyond the page, etc. Only in retrospect do I realize I could/should have sanded the rippling over-abundance of grounding material and at some point pressed flat[ter] under books. At the time I wrecked a pitt pen and moved on. We'd seen the movie Tulip Mania the night before and had a long discussion about the general historical event afterwards. J was surprised I knew some stuff and delivered info with such enthusiastic verve. I said to him, 'it's about flowers, isn't it ???']
One thing I learned very beautifully from last year's spontaneously decided-upon collage challenge is that amazing things can happen when someone is willing and ready to trust someone else enough to come into a place of much deeper trust with themselves. I learned that from the group, from the amount of challenges and lessons I juggled behind the scenes, and here on the verge of the House of Self/solar center, I will also say I learned a tremendous amount from my previously established inner resources. The most important thing I learned was that what I'd already established at an internal level was far less disparate and meager than I imagined in my conscious mind's skew of who I was.
suicide prevention/risk assessment work needs to have a strong heart connection but the heart center itself must be protected simply to keep it beating and beaming strongly in the rest of life. That means what I knew of myself as a leader comes from the sacral belly and Ajna territory. I did not have the luxury (and this is exactly the most organic way to put it) of leading from my heart within my larger work. It would have been trampled to shreds within - knowing myself as I do - less than a month.
So I found out about the specific creative/healing magic that comes from a purely heart-centered place when I started prepping for the collage challenge in December. Part of that was various energetic/intentional magic kind of work here in the studio. I opened a channel. And because I came from a heart centered place - and purely a heart place - everything that came back to me was from the heart as well.
the biggest learning: when you aren't focused on the most broken and abandoned parts of the population, and you offer something that is purely enjoyable and fun within a built-in but intimately sized community - 95% of the heart you will be shown flowing back to you is likely to be WOW so heart-full and loving.
this is what we all have within us at all times - the Power of Heart. That's one of the two secondary things the collage challenge taught me. The subtext, of course, is that combined heart energy is immeasurably powerful. It can connect disembodied space into a bona fide community. This is an invaluable thing to start thinking about more tangibly as another season of lockdown living gets underway.
I think it all boils down to what's patently obvious from the onset. People need to be able trust themselves as well as the leader. If they can't do both they must at least have one of the trust factors firmly grounded. After grounding comes focus. Being willing to give that to yourself and how you're feeling/reacting before it becomes a part of the mainframe's focus.
I've always felt able to trust myself in relation to personal growth/creative exploration work. I learned to trust my leadership abilities when a person who, by any measure, was a world class leader-oriented teacher told me I had excellent instincts and unique skills worth developing.
Right now I feel that way very very strongly about the two young gentlemen doing all the heavy lifting so absolutely all I have to do is show up and maintain faith the magic will make itself for and with whoever shows up with me.
I want both R and M to move forward in learning what that means to them. So in the coming YELLOW House of Self month I'll combine art journal pages with stuff I've learned about leadership, healing energy, and what I've learned that applies to me not quite as specifically as I've chosen to imagine in the past. My intention is inspire an inner look at your own solar expression because we all need our inner sun's light to shine on and on and on right now.
because we are ALL leaders - if only of ourselves and what directional course we set at any given point of our day/night.